I have been using drugs and alcohol for 13 years and have lost hope of ever being able to find longstanding recovery.  I have lost 2 jobs, my marriage, and now my health is suffering.  Because I can’t tolerate the reality of my situation, I continue to eradicate my feelings with my permanent companion – ALCOHOL.  Day in and day out…., just waiting for the next shoe to drop, anticipating the worst.  What will the end of the line look like for me?  I have tried everything: medications, individual therapy, inpatient treatment, failed abstinence, new relationships, geographical changes, 12-Step Groups, promises, promises, promises. Everyone has lost faith in me, especially ME.